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windandstorm2010-10-03 03:36 am
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While the movie was on, it hadn't been so bad. It wasn't a silent experience, by any means (when Duo involved, it rarely was), but comments were directed toward the screen instead of each other, and any silence was easily filled by the film continuing on. Once it ended, it was harder to keep himself distracted from the fact that things were off-balance, and that made it harder to pretend that they weren't. It was a stupid cycle, but he wasn't going to let the fact that he'd asked about something he probably shouldn't have screw up their friendship. Especially since it hadn't. Not yet.
It wasn't the asking that was causing the problem, it was the fact that things seemed different, but they weren't different, not really, and that was seriously throwing Duo off. It would almost be easier if Heero had been angry, if only because then Duo's nervous energy could be used trying to fix things instead of trying to not mess things up by anticipating nonexistent issues. He was trying to ignore all of that, though, so he just leaned back in his seat and stretched. If he acted like there wasn't anything wrong, there wouldn't be anything wrong... right? "That one wasn't terrible. Told you I could find a good movie if you gave me another chance."
It wasn't the asking that was causing the problem, it was the fact that things seemed different, but they weren't different, not really, and that was seriously throwing Duo off. It would almost be easier if Heero had been angry, if only because then Duo's nervous energy could be used trying to fix things instead of trying to not mess things up by anticipating nonexistent issues. He was trying to ignore all of that, though, so he just leaned back in his seat and stretched. If he acted like there wasn't anything wrong, there wouldn't be anything wrong... right? "That one wasn't terrible. Told you I could find a good movie if you gave me another chance."
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Unfortunately, he also felt his mind go in two completely opposite directions. He could almost feel the crumbling of the metaphorical wall he'd built to seal away and banish his feelings for Duo years ago, but a small part of him still had those warning bells going off, repeating everything he'd been telling himself to make sure he didn't mess something up by acting on feelings he never thought would be reciprocated... it was a mess. Where the hell had this come from? Why now? What the hell was he supposed to say to this?!
He knew he had to say something. The ball was in his court, and he didn't want to just drop it, but... He took a deep breath, shook his head sharply, and took a moment to just close his eyes and think. He had a miniature speech prepared, but apparently his instincts had another idea, because he only managed to ask, "You... really?"